My Charismatic Ahjussi(?) Biases

Please don't underestimate me from the title. Hahaha but really recently because of my bored holiday, then I wasted my time with watching k-drama and browsing. OH I NEED VACATION /cry a river/

So, because of those k-dramas, I started to choose my favorite character. But almost all of them have ahjussi age lol. So, let's start before you think too much.

1. Lee Dong Wook

lol I remembered this was my N-Gage QD wallpaper xDD

Well, why he is the first? Because, I love him since long time ago, around primary high school if I am not wrong (from his drama "My Girl" with Lee Da Hae). But, I only followed him until the "Partner" drama. Then, one year ago I watched "Scent of Woman". AND WHAT THE HELL HE LOOKS SO FUCKING AWESOME with that western boy looks (I am sure he did surgery but who cares) Then, I love him moreeeeeeeeeeee moreeeeee +++++. He changed a lot after the military service. He built his body well. OMG HIS ABS hahaha lol sorry for fangirling. But from this, I have learn that first love will never being forgotten :')

Scent Of Woman TT too handsome~~

2. Cha Seung Won

He is the truly ahjussi lol. But although he is the oldest, but his charisma and his abs really makes me melted....... I never know this person until then I watched "The Greatest Love". His character suited him well lol. His laugh, his smirk, his stupidness, and his romantic thingy. AHHH I want to have husband(?) like him. But he is a married man lol. Almost all of them are married. Poor me lol.

lol ahjussi how should I commented into this!!!

3. Jang Dong Gun

cook for me pleaseee~~~

Well, actually I never know the exact face of him before I finally watching "Gentleman's Dignity" (I RECOMMENDED THIS TO YOU) Well actually the drama makes me to love ahjussi more than before. Because, lol they looks so fucking funny+charismatic at the same time!!! I love all of the cast there those 4 ahjussi in Gentleman's Dignity. Each person has an unique personality that I liked. But then Jang Dong Gun won my heart hahaha... Maybe because of those 'one sided love' thingy..... SIGH. But in real life, he is also a married man /cry a river/

4 ahjussi that I told before. hahaha so charismatic+dorky!!! (Yoon haven't married fyi)

4. Song Seung Hoon

little bored huh? Here an abs for you /drool/

I don't know if Seung Hoon including one of all ahjussi in this list. I know this person from a drama called "My Princess" (I bought the DVD about 2 years ago but just watched it last week). He play a diplomat role there. OH SHIT MAN!!! You know that since I studied International Relations thingy, I really want to marry a diplomat. Like srsly he is so handsome+awesome+romantic+and look like Siwon a bit ahahaha. And his eyelashes is not kidding!!!! It's so thick and makes him more++++ handsome!!!!

with a little princess Lee Seol. AHHH!!! please be my kid's father!! lol

5. Lee Chun Hee

Well I know him from Family Outing. And I fallen for him because of his handsomeness+stupidness lol. He has a similar character with Lee Gwangsoo at Running Man (I think I fallen for stupid boy so much). But, the thing that disappoint me is.................(again) he is a married man. I know it right after I am fallen for him and then googling about him and.........../hearbreak/

T__T but still happy wedding guys T__T

6. Choi Jin Hyuk

His smile just color my life hahaha (too much)

This is the new one lol. He won my heart more than the lead actor (Lee Seung Gi) on "Gu Family Book". I really love him the very first episode. When he appeared, OMG he is so adorable. His smile, his smirk, his charisma becoming wolf hahahahaha (I once imagining if I have a husband like Gu Wul Ryeong lol I will never stab him back. Blame Seo Hwa for that TT (lol too emotional while watching drama)

SHIT THIS SMIRK IS DAEBAK ONE

There's many more but I am too lazy to type hahahaha have no idea what to write. So, I ended up with 5 ahjussi here. So, how do you think? Did we have a same type? hahahhaaha But all of them makes me want to marry a mature man more than a same age man or even younger than me. AHHH!!! hahahaha, so enjoy this post. And waiting for the next one!!!

Thanks for reading!!!

Fangirl

Around 2009, same year with me started this blog, I started to feel so many different things that maybe I couldn't get to if I didn't joined this zone. We called as Everlasting Friends or known as ELF. If you know, ELF is the name that Super Junior gave to their fans. Yes, and I am one of them. Actually I am not the official one, of course you know the distance was the problem. If you want to be the official one, you should go to Korea and manage it all there. Since my hangul isn't that good like an expert, so I think being Indonesian official one is enough.

And now, in 2013, I am still here, in this zone. I am still the same me with all my love to them. (although I changed to be more mature than before) I still can handle my emotion and not really into K-pop that often. I don't know why, every time I trying to stop this fangirling thingy, the more I found it interesting. I found this activity (fangirling, spazzing, and watching concert) is addicting like drugs. I know, I know that this activity do really disturbing. I do realized that when you watch them, spazzing over them, spent money just to buy their album or watching their concert is a unnecessary things to do for common people. There's so many disapproval from my family especially. (God Bless my ELF friends that have those parents that support their fangirling activities). Yes, I understand their way of thinking. I know they will think that 'concert' is the wrong way to spending much money. In addition, I am not rich, I mean my family. I don't want to bother my parent's saving to be spent for concert. That's why, I always try to think the different way to satisfy this desires of being ELF. I try to understand their way of thinking even though it was very hard.

If you think that I just love them just for fun and it won't be long lasting, I think you're wrong. If I do this just for fun or because SJ is a mainstream idol to loved, honestly, if I already falling in love with peoples/things/idols, I always keep them until the unexpected time. Example, for my crush. I have the same crush from my first year Junior High School era until my last year Senior High School era since I have found another crush. That's my 'unique' trait actually. I think that's why I can't get out from this zone. For me, SJ has 'that' different thing that other k-boybands doesn't have. That will be the reason why I am still here for about 5 years. Because I am that trusty kind of girl. (lol promotion)

Not only negative sides, being an ELF drive me to be a 'new' and better person. I even met so many different people that also an ELF. It amazed me that just because one similarity then we could connected. Sometimes, I feel ELF is not just a name, we are community, we are family, and we are SJ's 'friends'. I know, SJ will never recognized my existence, but I feel myself being called when they said 'ELF'. I don't care whether it was only a strategy to gain ELF, I don't care about it. Kind of desperate or careless, but I just don't want to bother my mind with that negative way of thinking.

I do realize that SJ decrease their quality. They looks so much different with the 'old' SJ that first time I saw. There's so many fake things, so many arrogance, I feel it, but then I always think that I just a fans. What did I know about them? They may smile, crying, or laughing in front of camera. But once that camera off, who knows??? I try to control that 'act like you know everything about SJ since you're an ELF' way of thinking. But, as I said before, they are just addicting like drugs. I know them, I watched them from the very first time they did debut, and I found them attractive. I falling in love with them for the very first time I saw them in front of me. Once again, I am that trusty kind of girl ;) lol

Thankyou for always bowing, I don't care whether it was for image or whatever, but I feel that

warm feeling :)

My wish for the adult me (I once imagine that I will open this in my old age time), I hope the 'mature' me could earn super much money for reach my fangirl's dream. Do study well now then get a decent job and my problem will be solved. Because, money can buy everything is true. Sorry for being sarcasm but come on, be realist!!! I mean, if you guys still think that money can't buy everything or money can't buy happiness, if I am being realist and selfish instead of being religious or whatever it called, my happiness could be bought by money. It was my own principle if you ask me about it now. Example, watching concert, I may just feel happiness but the sensation of watching your idol concert is so fantastic. Everyone has their own way of thinking, rite? That's why for me, concert is really worth it, especially Supershow.

This is just one of my random thought, no offense, and I just write this to explore my own opinion about my self and my experiences being an ELF. If you have a different way from mine, It's okay :)

Lastly, I just want to say Happy 7th Anniversary for ELF on 2nd June yesterday. I don't know whether I will leave this zone or not, but if you ask me about it now, I think I still happy being an ELF and I haven't found any better idols than SJ. Let's do sapphire blue ocean once with me :")

I wish I was there once in my life :")

"I never ask them to love me back, but yeah I feel it, they love me back"







Thankyou for reading!!!!

Kim Kibum's X File~

Setelah mencoba untuk tidak post soal Korea, akhirnya gue menyerah *lambai-lambaiin tangan ke kamera*
Sekali lagi, motivasi gue buat nulis lagi tinggi banget. Dan kali ini gue akan bahas, orang yang paling banyak gue singgung di tiap post. Baik disaat alay maupun sekarang, hm ya gue masih alay. /dor

Siapalagi kalo bukan, yaudah lo liat sendiri aja judulnya siapa. Yoi men, Kim Kibum. Bias gue, uhuk uhuk selain Donghae, Hyukjae, dan Leeteuk dan Kyuhyun deh. Bukannya labil, tapi keadaan membuat gue harus mempunyai bias lebih dari satu. Keadaannya adalah, dia tiba-tiba ngilang gitu aja habis 3jib. Alasannya sih mau fokus akting. Awalnya sebagai seorang fans yang ga ngerti kehidupan idol di Korea itu gimana, yaudahlahya mau vakum. Paling juga sealbum doang kelar main film balik lagilah pasti. Waktu itu, itu yang gue pikirin.

Eh, gue tongkrongin sampai 5jib, Mr. Simple kagak ada juga tu manusia di MV atau ya setidaknya di live performance-lah. Padahal setau gue dia akting cuma di film, okay film ya gue ulang, bukan drama. Itu juga filmnya (maaf) rada ga jelas. Jujur gue beli dan nonton karena ada dia doang lol.
Sementara, gue liat member lain kaya Siwon, Donghae, sama Sungmin juga syuting,kan? Dan mereka syuting DRAMA buka FILM kaya si ono.

Nah, terus Kibum itu SELALU keluar berita jadi aktor tepat sekali ntah kebetulan ada diSENGAJAIN ye, gue ga ngerti juga. Nih kaya Jumunjin waktu itu,kan awal-awal pas Sorry,Sorry. Nah terus, uda nih ngilang gitu aja. Terus, pas Mr.Simple itu dia main Deep Rooted Tree dan sekarang nih zamannya promosi SFS, dia main di I Love Italy, terus sekarang dia main Tian Long Babu. Ga ngerti mungkin perannya di sana jadi babu kali TKI ke China. hufhafhufhaf.

Gue curiganya sih, inget ya ini pendapat gue loh. Ceritanya ini curhatan Snowers yang sudah sekian lama menunggu. Brb nyanyi lagu Ridho Rhoma /eh
Yap, lupakan. Sampe mana tadi? Oh ya, kecurigaan gue. Gue rasa Kibum tuh emang dikontrak SM buat Super Junior cuma sampai Sorry,Sorry doang. Jadi dia kaya jadi penarik(?) apa sih namanya hmm semacam pancingan gitu. Seperti yang kita tahu, Kibumkan dulu ibaratnya Siwon sekarang deh. Maksud gue dia dulu emang tenar banget. Gimana nggak? liat aja cover Twins mukanya segede gaban. Itu bukan album SJ kayanya, keliatannya kaya album solo-nya. Ini gue kasih nih.

Terus, album kedua uda rada lumayan sih. Don't Don' semuanya dapet space yang cukup adil. Di Twins sama U, itu kan masih album pertama ya. Eh bener gak sih, auk pokoknya pas U, Kyuhyun baru masuk. Sampai di U, porsi rap buat Kibum itu masih lumayan banyak. Di lagu ballad-pun dia dikasih kan kaya Endless Moment. Ya, lumayanlah ye dapet tampil dikit di akhir "Girl, my heart is so cold. Please come back to me, forever" Ye, gimana gue mau balik ke lo, lo-nya kaga ada.
Sampai akhirnya di album kedua, kan ada Don't Don' sama Marry U di repackaged-nya. DIA SAMA SEKALI GA DAPET PART. Dapet paling cuma "yeah" doang. Di radio promotion-pun tu orang diem aja, gue baru nonton sih kemaren yang promotion album kedua di Sukira. Dia malah yang diem doang kaya gagu. Uda dipancing buat ngomong, kagak mau. Sampai di album ketiga, setau gue juga dia ada di MV juga gak ikut ngedance. Jadi cuma close up, sama apaan di awal megang pita terus mau ditutup matanya, habis itu ada paha cewek. Jujur sampe sekarang gue ga ngerti itu gunanya apaan. Gue ngerasa semuanya uda diatur. Dari yang partnya banyak, terus lama-lama jadi dikit, dan makin dikit. Sampai akhirnya sekarang yang jadi pancingannya Siwon. Emang udah dari dulu sih ye Siwon banyak yang suka. Nah omong-omong soal Siwon. Gue juga mencurigakan dia.

Kalo lo ELF, lo pasti tau kan kalo Siwon sama Kibum itu temenan baik banget. Karena Siwon yang inggrisnya paling lumayan dan intinya mereka cocok gitu. Anehnya, mereka kaya uda ga kenal lagi sekarang. Dari mana gue tau? Sekali lagi, ini hanya pendapat. Mau dipertimbangkan silahkan, ga mau dipercaya juga hayuk. Gue menganalisa ini murni dari apa yang gue liat dari twitter. Tau dong kalo Kibum ngefollow Donghae dan Eunhyuk. Yah, walaupun Donghae gak follow back, gatau deh sekarang uda atau belum gue ga punya waktu buat ngecek. Tapi terakhir gue cek dia belum follow. Sementara Eunhyuk udah, karena waktu itu gatau ada angin apaan tiba-tiba Kibum dateng ke musikal-nya Eunhyuk. Walaupun Donghae gak follow tapi emang mereka berdua SETAU GUE suka ketemuan gitu. Intinya gak lost contact. Tapi, dengan Siwon. X-FILE~~~ hahahaha

Gue sama sekali ga pernah denger Siwon nyinggung Kibum, sementara Donghae sering banget. Member lain juga sering kok nge'mention' dia di acara-acara variety tertentu. Kaya waktu I Love Italy, ada video Ryeowook, Eunhyuk sama Shindong ngasih semangat. Well, mereka masih baik dong pasti. Tapi gue ga pernah ngeliat Siwon kaya gitu. I mean, mereka kan temen baik banget dulu. Cocok kali ye sama-sama American Style. Tapi gatau kenapa sekarang jadi kaya strangers gitu. Nah itulah kecurigaan gue yang lain.

Hm, dan satu lagi, alasan Kibum vakum karena dia pengen fokus akting buat gue kayanya itu bullshit abis. /cieee kata-katanya/ Kenapa? Wong Donghae sama Siwon main drama juga masih bisa kok bareng-bareng SJ. Malahan menurut gue aktingnya mereka juga total kok, gak kalah sama yang ono yang vakum. Yah walaupun absen di beberapa event, gue sih mending absen sementara dibanding kaya gini. Bilangnya sementara nyatanya sampe sekarang ga pernah nyinggung soal mau balik. Gatau deh gue sampai kapan gue harus nunggu. Waktu SMTOWN pun Kibum dateng, kan. SMTOWN tahun kapan ya, hm 2010 gitu? Pokoknya dia sempet dateng deh terus cuma jadi penonton. Maksud gue 'tuh lo bisa dateng kenapa ga bisa comeback?' Kadang gue bingung sih mau nyalahin siapa. Karena namanya fans ya gabakal tahu kan gimana realitanya. Bisa aja sebenernya kontrak Kibum buat SJ emang cuma sampai 3jib terus dia bisa ngelanjutin jadi aktor. Tapi kenapa dia ga bikin statement aja gitu kalo dia emang uda gak member SJ lagi. Jadi jelas, gue juga gausah nunggu. Ini malah, tiap interview masih bilang dia masih SJ lah apalah, ya buktiin dong.

Beberapa temen ELF gue juga sempet bilang sih, kalo misalnya dia ngaku resikonya tinggi banget. Berarti dia ketahuan boong dan, liat aja pas Hangeng keluar, berapa banyak antis yang muncul. Gue rasa SM terlalu takut untuk itu. Yah buat gue dia ngaku ataupun gak situasinya sama aja. Maksud gue, dia gak ngaku juga gue uda ngerasa dia  uda bukan bagian dari SJ. Sorry to say, yah gausah munafiklah. Sekarang mana ada lagi yang bener-bener bisa ngikutin Kibum sama SJ bersamaan. Kaya gue, ultimate bias emang tetep dia. Tapi di SJ ga mungkin dong gue gak spazzing siapa-siapa. Ga fokus ke member lain. Perlahan-lahan kayanya gue bisa aja sampe di titik jenuh dimana gue uda gabisa percaya lagi sama rumor-rumor, hoax-hoax atau mungkin suatu saat itu emang beneran kejadian tapi gue uda lost my interest towards him.

Terus apa yang gue mau? Setidaknya bikin statement yang jelas, gue tau resiko-nya tinggi banget. Tapi dengan dia gak ngomong dan bohong terus juga ga menyelesaikan masalah. Ada berapa banyak coba ya walaupun uda pada ninggalin ya. Uda pada nyerah, ga tahan dibohongin gue rasa. Coba berapa banyak orang Thailand yang suka sama dia. hahaha, yah Kibum emang terkenal banget di Thai. Gue juga nggak ngerti kenapa lol. Mana cantik-cantik. Kasian cantik-cantik mau aja ditipu.

Sekali lagi, ini hanya pendapat gue. Ga berniat ngejudge atau gimana. Ini adalah semacam keluh kesah gue selama menunggu selama 4 tahun. Dan kayanya gue masih akan tetap menunggu, karena ya bodohnya gue uda ditipu berkali-kali masih aja percaya. Tapi yaudalah, gue akan nunggu. Mau akhirnya nanti gimana, yasudahlah. hahahaha

Terimakasih sudah membaca~

Photogenic

"Cantik itu relatif, Photoshop itu alternatif"

Setelah mendengar ini, gue rada merasa disindir. Gue juga merasa sih gue di foto dan di asli bedanya lumayan jauh. Yah, karena tiap foto, gue selalu bisa menentukan angle yang bagus biar gue keliatan kurus. Gak heran kalo di facebook setiap kali gue kelar ngeupload foto baru, selalu ada yang chat atau komen "wah tambah kurus ya" "makin cantik ya" well kalian semua tertipu saudara-saudara.

Tentu saja gue gak berniat menipu mereka. Well gue ga pake photoshop sih kalo ngedit foto, mah. Gue pake photoscape. Itu juga gue cuma ngenambahin cahaya biar jerawat dan flek itam gue gak muncul lol.

Tapi gue juga gatau kenapa hasil foto gue selalu bagus. Dan gue terlihat kurus dan cantik dan pipi gue jadi tirus. Tapi aslinya, yah gitulah. Jauh bangetlah dari kata cantik dan kurus. (you can imagine it right?)

Tapi sebenernya kalo diperhatiin baik-baik, foto gue itu kebanyakan gayanya sama aja. Hanya main-mainin bibir gue dan mata gue dibesarin dikit. Terlahir dengan mata kecil DAN GA ADA KELOPAK gak masalah buat gue. Thanks to the maker of eyeliner, alat yang sangat-sangat berguna buat gue. 

Tapi gak jarang selca-selca gue itu gak make eyeliner. Apalagi dimasa-masa kealay-an gue. Yah everyone had experienced it lah. Dan gue tetep lumayan bagus. Yah, intinya bedalah dengan aslinya gue. Tapi yes, I am proud to be like this. Maksud gue bukannya mau menipu, ya kalo bagus ga ada salahnya dong gue post di jejaring sosial. Gak merugikan juga, yaudah sih kalo gue jelek di aslinya terus ruginya lo apa? /wuis ngajak berantem/

Ya tiap orangkan punya kelebihannya masing-masing. So, gue bisa bilang kalau ini salah satu kelebihan gue. Dan karena hal inilah, gue jadinya yah narsis. Gue selalu menyempatkan diri foto selca kalau gue merasa keadaan muka dan segalanya oke. Pencahayaan dan kondisi kamera juga mempengaruhi bagus atau gak-nya hasilnya. Hm, gue sih biasanya make hape sendiri dan beberapa kali sempet minjem (yee gak modal)

Yah smartphone sekarangkan uda punya kamera depan yang kemampuannya uda lumayan bagus hasilnya. Untuk saat ini sih gue suka banget selca pake Samsung. buat Iphone, hmm kamera depannya ga bagus kalo cahayanya gak gede. Jadi gue rada gasuka kalo Iphone.

Ya, itu aja sih dari gue...hmm yah lagi-lagi ini cerocosan gajelas abis. Karena gue suka geram aja sama orang-orang yang ngekomen "ih kurusan ya" atau "makin cantik deh". Bukannya itu berarti, gue yang sebelumnya itu gendut dan jelek? Dih...

Seneng? Yah pasti adalah rasa senengnya tapi gue jadi merasa kasian sama diri gue dan si yang memuji. Kasian dia nanti bakal shock ngeliat aslinya gue gimana dan kasian gue yang dipuji hanya sebatas dari foto hiks hiks... buru keluarin lagu sedihnya.

Udah ya, kayanya gue uda blank lagi mau nulis apa.

Thanks banget yang uda mau baca. *menatap chatbox yang isinya orang malaysia nyuruh ngunjungin blognya*

BYE! See you in next post~!!