Around 2009, same year with me started this blog, I started to feel so many different things that maybe I couldn't get to if I didn't joined this zone. We called as Everlasting Friends or known as ELF. If you know, ELF is the name that Super Junior gave to their fans. Yes, and I am one of them. Actually I am not the official one, of course you know the distance was the problem. If you want to be the official one, you should go to Korea and manage it all there. Since my hangul isn't that good like an expert, so I think being Indonesian official one is enough.
And now, in 2013, I am still here, in this zone. I am still the same me with all my love to them. (although I changed to be more mature than before) I still can handle my emotion and not really into K-pop that often. I don't know why, every time I trying to stop this fangirling thingy, the more I found it interesting. I found this activity (fangirling, spazzing, and watching concert) is addicting like drugs. I know, I know that this activity do really disturbing. I do realized that when you watch them, spazzing over them, spent money just to buy their album or watching their concert is a unnecessary things to do for common people. There's so many disapproval from my family especially. (God Bless my ELF friends that have those parents that support their fangirling activities). Yes, I understand their way of thinking. I know they will think that 'concert' is the wrong way to spending much money. In addition, I am not rich, I mean my family. I don't want to bother my parent's saving to be spent for concert. That's why, I always try to think the different way to satisfy this desires of being ELF. I try to understand their way of thinking even though it was very hard.
If you think that I just love them just for fun and it won't be long lasting, I think you're wrong. If I do this just for fun or because SJ is a mainstream idol to loved, honestly, if I already falling in love with peoples/things/idols, I always keep them until the unexpected time. Example, for my crush. I have the same crush from my first year Junior High School era until my last year Senior High School era since I have found another crush. That's my 'unique' trait actually. I think that's why I can't get out from this zone. For me, SJ has 'that' different thing that other k-boybands doesn't have. That will be the reason why I am still here for about 5 years. Because I am that trusty kind of girl. (lol promotion)
Not only negative sides, being an ELF drive me to be a 'new' and better person. I even met so many different people that also an ELF. It amazed me that just because one similarity then we could connected. Sometimes, I feel ELF is not just a name, we are community, we are family, and we are SJ's 'friends'. I know, SJ will never recognized my existence, but I feel myself being called when they said 'ELF'. I don't care whether it was only a strategy to gain ELF, I don't care about it. Kind of desperate or careless, but I just don't want to bother my mind with that negative way of thinking.
I do realize that SJ decrease their quality. They looks so much different with the 'old' SJ that first time I saw. There's so many fake things, so many arrogance, I feel it, but then I always think that I just a fans. What did I know about them? They may smile, crying, or laughing in front of camera. But once that camera off, who knows??? I try to control that 'act like you know everything about SJ since you're an ELF' way of thinking. But, as I said before, they are just addicting like drugs. I know them, I watched them from the very first time they did debut, and I found them attractive. I falling in love with them for the very first time I saw them in front of me. Once again, I am that trusty kind of girl ;) lol
Thankyou for always bowing, I don't care whether it was for image or whatever, but I feel that
warm feeling :)
My wish for the adult me (I once imagine that I will open this in my old age time), I hope the 'mature' me could earn super much money for reach my fangirl's dream. Do study well now then get a decent job and my problem will be solved. Because, money can buy everything is true. Sorry for being sarcasm but come on, be realist!!! I mean, if you guys still think that money can't buy everything or money can't buy happiness, if I am being realist and selfish instead of being religious or whatever it called, my happiness could be bought by money. It was my own principle if you ask me about it now. Example, watching concert, I may just feel happiness but the sensation of watching your idol concert is so fantastic. Everyone has their own way of thinking, rite? That's why for me, concert is really worth it, especially Supershow.
This is just one of my random thought, no offense, and I just write this to explore my own opinion about my self and my experiences being an ELF. If you have a different way from mine, It's okay :)
Lastly, I just want to say Happy 7th Anniversary for ELF on 2nd June yesterday. I don't know whether I will leave this zone or not, but if you ask me about it now, I think I still happy being an ELF and I haven't found any better idols than SJ. Let's do sapphire blue ocean once with me :")
I wish I was there once in my life :")
"I never ask them to love me back, but yeah I feel it, they love me back"
Thankyou for reading!!!!
