Have you ever heard about secret admirer ? I am the one of secret admirer in this world. Who am i admired ? Secret. Let's called him fish. I called him fish and he called me elephant at that time.
Believe or not, i love Fish for five years and he knew it. We are really close when i am at seventh grade. He try to avoid me when one of my best friend told him that i love him. I don't knew it at the first. But, aish... I couldn't angry to my best friend at that time, right ?
When his birthday come, i bought gift to Fish. My friends helped me to bring it to him. Do you know he said what ? "how much houses that she have ate so that she can be fat like that ?" he said to my friends. i cried a lot when i heard that. I am still save that gift until i am in 9th grade . After that, i don't knew where it placed.
When i was 8th grade, i have another boy to love. Called him Kiki. But, it really different feeling with Fish. I just like his kindness to me. He really gentleman ! But i am still couldn't forgotten Fish for sure. Silly me, i bought gift again to Fish as his birthday gift and i told Kiki for helped me. Kiki is Fish's best friend. Kiki gave it to him and do you know what ? Fish don't wanna accepted it but Kiki forced Fish to accepted it. Kiki putted my gift in Fish's bag. I am really touching when i am heard this story.
But, when the bell for go home rung, my friend saw Fish is searched Kiki for gave me back my gift. Fortunately, Kiki is going home already. So, he put my gift to his home. Do you know what, the next day Kiki said to me that Fish said thanks to me for the gift. Oh my GOD, i still remember how happy am i.
"How can Fish accepted my gift even thought he wanna gave it back to me yesterday !" i said it to Kiki.
"I heard that he ask his mom what should he do with your gift. And his mom ask him to save it and say thank to you." Kiki replied me.
"WHAT ?"
Okay, i really dissapointed . He isn't loves me for sure. He never loved the fatty girl like me. No, fatty and ugly.
Slowly, i can forgotten Fish but not at all. Kiki and i was so close in the class. He always bring me happiness. I think, i love him more .
9th grade, unfortunately we are not in the same class. He is not my classmates and i am not his classmates. But, we still best friend. Yeah, just best friend.
But the problem is coming. Aish, why problem is always come when i am feel it ? It came from my enemy called her Flower.
Flower is my friend at first, but slowly she changed to be evil woman. She is my classmates and Kiki's best friend too, hmmm not her but her boyfriend. Ex-boyfriend right now. I am forgot what she did to me so that i could hate her, unfortunately again, i have told to her that i love Kiki. Even i hate her, but i had a good relationship with her BF, okay call him Cat. After Flower and i in a really bad relationship, Flower told Kiki that i loved him. Kiki's reaction is like this.
Kiki: (smiling) it will be funny if i have GF like her. She taller than me. hahaha...
Nothing wrong for the answer. Hmm, makes me little happy. Slowly but sure, Flower start to told Kiki my negative side. She told Kiki that i bullied her and bla bla bla...
Kiki hate me at that time. He sent me message "hey, stop disturb my friend. Big Pig !"
I never talk to him and i really hate him when i received that message. It exist until i am graduated from Junior High School. After that we are discommunicated . Kiki with his new friend in new school and me at my school with... Ehem with Fish.
Fish come again to my heart. We really never talked after his birthday tragedy. Now i am in 11th grade. And still love him and always hoping that he could love me. But, i heard that he love another girl even they are in relationship already. Their last name in facebook account are same. I cried a lot because of it. But, I am still hoping. I know that is impossible he will love me.
Oh, i am forget. i also have another boy to love at 10th grade. Called him Hyun Joong But, Flower is get him after broken up with Cat. Silly me. But i still have a good relationship with him. His face looked like Kim Hyun Joong. Hahaha...
If Hyun Joong broke up with Flower, maybe i could forgot Fish. xP
But, Fish...
I hope you are reading this silly story from a fat and ugly girl..
I love you, i have love you for 5 years. I miss you so much.
Thank you for the best moment when we are in 7th grade.
Remember, when you sat in front of me ? You borrowed all of my book.
You always make me smile.
I know, i know you must forgotten it, right ?
I am not important for you.
SHE, the another girl who is your loved is more important than me.
I hope both of you will be happy.
So, what do you think ? Am i crazy ? I don't know. But i couldn't forgot Fish from my life. But if Kibum loves me i could. Hahahaha...
I think that's enough. i told you a lot about my love story. I never have a boyfriend before and i really want to have it. i always envy when looked at a couple at school. How it feel ?
Thx for reading
BBU
고마워!
Tapi, disaat gua lagi in love sama Jjong waktu itu Irene memberikan informasi yang membuat hati hancur berkeping-keping. Masih inget banget waktu itu gua mau les Fisika jadi makan dulu di kafe dekat sekolah yang bernama Balima. Awalnya gua perginya sama Maya dan temennya, soalnya mereka juga les Ekop. Terus tiba-tiba Irene sama Femmy dateng terus ikutan makan juga. Setelah beberapa menit melihat layar BBnya, si Irene manggil gua yang berada di meja depannya gak berapa lama setelah pesanan gua datang kalo gak salah gua uda makan beberapa suap.
